Pehla Ehsaas

So now I knew the Name..
From My perspective this was an Achievement...Knowing her Name :p
What a Beautiful name.. I thought..
Mujhe uske naam se bhi pyaar ho gaya..
and once she’s mine she won't have to change her surname as we have same surname: P
I know it's quite pissing but Kya Karein ab..
pyaar toh aisa hi hota hai..
That evening at my home i searched her on Orkut..
and i found her quite easily ..
Meher sharma
from Meerut
Here for Friendship
14 Mutual Friends..


Wait..14..
I checked them out..
Most were girls of my class..
I guess may be because they all were in same Hostel..
Suddenly my cell rang..it was neha..
"Hey" I said
"Kya haaal hai majnu sahab"she said
and started laughing..
I loved that laugh..
First time she laughed like that was when i Fell While crossing stairs..
I fell in love with that smile that moment only..
I could fall thousand time for that laugh..


I told her what I was doing..
"Give me her Profile Link" She said
I did that..
scrapped her that..
"Hmmmmmmmm.. that's not her in her display pic" she said
"Of course not dumbo,that's Lindsay Lohan" I said
"Friend Request Bhej"She said
"Pagal hai kya?Wo jaanti bhi nahin mujhe fir bhi bhej doon?"I said
she said "had se had Reject hi toh hogi yaar,Accept ho gai toh aish"
"That's gonna be my first Impression neha and this will ruin it" I Argued
"Hmmm...that's right..toh kya karein?" She said
"Raina se dosti badha,uske through tu Meher se friendship kar"I said
"Toh tu kya karega?sab main hi karooon" She said
"No..once you are done with this all..I ll take over from there" I said
then we talked how can she do all this and another strategies as well
then she kept down phone saying "You are mad and making me also one"


next day in College..

my Mobile wallpaper had changed..
there was one pic of her that was luckily visible to me..only one..damn these privacy settings
it was her school time group pic
i cropped her from the pic and made it my wallpaper..quite blurry but i was satisfied..
for the first time in my life I was getting annoyed when i was getting any message, call or some alert..coz that was disturbing me from seeing her pic..
I wanted to see it continuously for days and months..
Anyways Neha was getting worried now a days for me..
In starting she thought it's a fling and will go soon..
But now it had been almost 2 months..
I was serious for her..for Meher
I too was surprised..this was all new to me….first time ever in my life..this feeling was completely new..
I just wanted to see her once in my day..and I ll be Happy for next 24 hours..


that day something happened..something good..
Internal exams were to start next week..
so I went to library to get some books issued..
but that was my lucky day :)
she was there..
Orange color suit.. long kurta..the suit was different from what i used to see other girls wearing..
I am a guy so don't know which one it was..patiala is the only one i know and she was not wearing patiala suit..Well I guess so..
I was waiting for post Fresher Party days..I was sure that she’ll look 100 times better in Western Clothing.
In Library..searching for some book..
and the movie started..
I tried looking at her face across books in the racks..
I was very nervous.. don't know why..
I am generally pretty confident and good with girls..
She didn't saw me..I felt ignored..
I thought..does she even know that I exist?

she went to the main counter to get the book issued..Environmental Engineering.. Galgotia Publications..
I also ran to the counter with the first book that I can grab..
For the first time ever..I heard her voice..My ear felt good..so good..
I wanted to repeat that in my mind again and again..
It was my luckiest day..
I was less that a feet close to her..


“Meher Sharma Mam.. Admission number, something something”..she said
Come on.. I am not that lame that I ll remember her admission number too..
Actually I was too much lost in smelling her hair..
that smell..it got stuck into me..I was mesmerized..
I was feeling an aroma completely different than anyone else in the library..her aroma
It was so strong that I wanted to kneel down in front of her and tell her "I love you like crazy, will you do the extra ordinary favor of Marrying Me?"
"Next"..I heard
She was gone..
I got the book issued..
Some Mechanical Engineering 3rd year Book :P


I called up neha to tell what happened..
and to my surprise she started Laughing..
I asked her if something was wrong..
she said "try to think all this from Meher's side..to her...nothing happened and that's the truth.. nothing matter untill she knows..You are here getting mad about her and she doesn't even have a clue you idiot"


PS: Neha didn't say "Idiot"..she said something much stronger than that :P

Rab di Meher..meri Meher

anyways Neha kept avoiding me.
class mein we used to sit together..well...not anymore
akeli baithti thi..aur kisi se uski banti bhi nahin thi..
class mates started talking..actually whispering..ki kya ho gaya hai dono k beech?
guys who used to think that i was trying on her were Happy and they tried to get close to her.
but it was Neha..all got bitten by her bad :P

1 week..2 week...the whole month passed
and suddenly one day i realised..i do have the right to know ki maine kya galat kiya..what did i do to offend her so much ki she stopped talking to me..taking my calls.?

there was so much we used to do in college in those 8 hours
but now those 8 hours seems like 18 to me..
I was so disturbed by this ki I stopped talking to any one in the class..
the only good part of my day was when i used to see her..my love..my ms. anamika
and she started noticing too that she got a stalker..i guess so..

I decided to confront her...Neha..not "Her" :p
still no guts to talk to her..
Neha was waiting for her car in the evening to pick her up
She was on call and she didn't seem Happy..In fact i saw tears in her eyes..
I saw her putting down her phone..
i started moving towards her..i reached and i noticed she was looking at her phone again..
it was from rohan..and it seems she didn't wanted to pick up..

I took her phone in my hand and she saw me then..
I thought she would be angry but all she could do is trying to hide her tears..
I asked.."Neha....kya hua?"
she couldn't control her tears more..
i took her hand in mine and went to the other side of the gate where people can't see her cry..
i wanted her to cry...coz she badly needed it..i knew

and she did it..she cried continously for few minutes..
I wanted to give her a tight hug..but i didn't do it..reason..no idea

Her car came and she asket tu bike se aaya hai aaj?
I said ankit ki bike hai aaj..
she said tu mere saath chal use bol de wo akela chala jayega..
I did the same..
I was happy coz now she was talking to me..
but i wanted to know ki why was she crying?
l should have waited for her to get normal..
but then i thought..she's a girl..she can't ever be normal..crazy Venus fellas :P

i said "Do I need to ask Neha? please blab it out..all.."
then she told me..
Rohan was uncomfortable with the fact that Neha had a Friend in college with whom she got close in just few days..
only 1 friend..a boy..that was me..
neha used to talk to him about me..
at first it was ok..but then rohan started geting uncomfortable..
Neha should have thought about it../
He's a guy..will be jelous of any other same sex guys(Neha wasn't Bisexual..i guess :P)
crazy Mars fellas :P


so Neha stopped talking to me..
she had a point..the reason wasn't convincing enough to discuss with me..
and above all she loved Rohan a lot.
so she stopped talking..
and she did tell me how painfull it was for her..that felt good that she cared about me :)

Other part of story was more pain full..
Rohan..He still wasn't convinced that neha was not in my contact..
he checked her phone call register..phone bill..got nothing there..he said may be you two are talking in college..
Neha tried to assured but i don't know what happened to him..he didn't trusted Neha..
I asked Neha to give him time to realise that he is doing wrong..

and told her not to pick his call atleast for one day..
she noded and gave me a silly look..i loved that look..
How come i don't have a crush on her?

anyways there was still more..

she said she had no idea why she did this..
Neha had got all information about my anonymous..ms. anamika..

Meher sharma..
from Meerut.
DPS pass out..
Topper of the batch..
Ms. farewell..
Dad advocate..mom teacher..
one Brother..Engineering 2nd year..
Wanted to be a Fashion designer but Ended up in an Engineering College..
loves to hang out..
Music in her nerves..
Down to earth attitude..
likes shahrukh khan's movies..

wait a minute..
that sounds like her orkut profile..
then Neha told..
all this information she got from her school Friend..Raina ..she too joined the college..
she read her scrap book too which meher had filled for raina..and believe it or not..Neha managed to get even the photocopy of that scrapbook page..

But we were in different sections
that was a problem..
Good thing...Raina was in my section..

Hey..wait a minute..
now i know here name..
Meher..