ishq khumari part 2

contnd.. .

maine raat me neha ko call kiya
usne pic kiya and i said
"yaar poore din se kept on thinking and i couldn'd agree on even a single way to approach her,i guess that's coz meri fatti hai usse"
and all she said was 
"abhi i ll talk to you later,bye"


i thought
what was it?
she sounded very tensed and bit sad too
i called her again,she cut the phone
i left a message
"seems ur in some trouble,if i cn help u even a bit,do lemee kno,i ll love to...take care "


but is that all she needed at that time?
then i called on her sisters number
nisha,her sister
she was in 11th
neha had called me 3 or 4 times from her number,so i had her's
and nisha did knew about me so i didn't resisted much in calling her
and i did had a small talk with her once through neha on phone
and of all neha used to share evrything with nisha
so she might know,i thought


she picked up and i asked her if anything is wrong..
she said as far as she knows all's fine.
and asked me "any problm?"
i said "neha is avoiding me,so was just chekin out"
she said "i dnt know d reason but use kuch bolna hai toh bata do mujhe"
i said "nahin main dekh lunga"

mujhe kuch samjh nahin aa raha tha ki neha aisa kyun ka rahi hai..
next day college me bhi usne bahut limited baat ki and kaafi weird behave kar rahi thi..


college over hua..5 baj rahe the around
main gate se bahar aaaya
neha khadi dikhi
maine socha ab toh puchna hi padega
so i confronted her and asked her
she said "abhinav kuch nahin hua hai,i just need some time for my self so please leave me alone for some time"
ek baat toh pakka ho gai thi isse
ki neha aisa keh rahi hai toh baat bahut badi hai..


bahut mushkil ho rahi thi but kuch kar bhi toh nahin sakta tha
ek hafte se neha se bas itni baat ho rahi thi ki class me do strangers ho
but main baat aur bigadna nahin chahta tha
i knew neha jab comfortable hogi mujhse khud baat kar legi
but tab tak khud ko sambhalna mushkil ho raha tha


meri anamika ke baare main sirf neha se share karta tha and usi se kar sakta tha
kitni batein karni thi mujhe usse
kitna kuch share karna tha uske baare mein
but aisa nahin ho paa raha tha
roz dikhti thi wo break mein
main roz lunch karna bhul jaata tha
bas use hi dekhta rehta
sab bhul gaya tha
ye bhi ki uske baare me kuch pata toh karoon


ab tak toh aadhe college ko pata lag gaya tha
ki ek majnu awara uske peeche hai
uska naam badi asani se pata lg sakta tha
karna bas ye tha ki uske aur uski frnds ke paas jaaake khade hona tha,and koi toh uske naam se bulata
but meri is had tal fati padi thi ki uske maximum close jaake bhi 15 m ka distance hota tha around..


neha hoti toh gaaliyaan deke ya kuch samjha ke kuch karwa deti
par aisa kuch nahin hua
and ye bhi nahin jaanta tha ki kyun ho raha hai ye sab?

to be continued .  .  .

dil vil pyar vyar

continued. . . 


maine  fir poocha "neha are you there? "
koi jawaab nahin aayega
but is baar ek baat figure out kar liya maine
she was crying

i said "neha ro rahi hai tu?"
she said "hmmmmmm"
and kept on crying
i kept on asking her ki kya hua and kyun itna ro rahi hai and all
thank god mera humour accha hai so she stopped to give me gaaliyan :P
and then poocha maine "kyun ganga jamuna baha rahi hai? "

wo fir udaas ho gai
but tab tak meri samjh aa gaya tha that it's all about rohan,her boyfriend
maine kahaan "wo bhi khush nahin hoga neha tujhse jhagda karke "
she said i know budhooo...and i know it too ki mujhse zyada wo pareshaan hoga is time..
toh fir kyun ego pakadke baithe ho dono,i said


"yaar pyaar me bahut si baatein aisi hoti hai jinka koi reason nahin hota
par ham kartein hai
ladai karke ego side karna ki kiski galti hai and patch up karna aisa hi kuch hai..
and that's most important
doesn't really matter ki kis silly baat par jhagda kar ke baithe ho"


and she was crying again
"yaar i really love him a lot"
i said "toh mujhe nahin use bataa"
she said "okheyyy"

baat karne ke baad but lete lete main sochne laga
ki kya main aur meri anamika bhi aisa kara karenge?
kya hamari bhi ego's clash karegi?
kya ham itni samjhdaari dikhayeenge?


and that was the moment when i decided ki mere liye aur kuch matter nahin karega above that we love each other and isse upar kuch nahin hoga that can affect us..
and it did brought a smile to my face..
and then i slept..


"thanks abhi, kal tune jo kiya woh itne kam din ki dosti mein koi nahin karta
i don't know ki mera kya haal ho gaya hota raat bhar mein"
ye words the neha ke next day when we met..
i said " mere liye yehi motivating point raha that you love him so much,that's why i came up with those words"
and then we hugged..


"dikhi teri madam aaj?" she asked
"naaa" i said
she said lunch mein poore college ka chakker maar lenge and use aaj pakka dekhega tu and tujhse pehle toh main dekhungi


lunch hote hi ham nikal pade apne mission par
kismat muskura rahi thi us din as mausam bada accha tha,baarish waala suhana mausam
and jaise hi stairs se utar ke neeche aaye hum,meri nazar padi and main ruk gaya..
and violens bajne lage..
thoda filmy tha but mere chehre par 440 volt ki smile aa gai thi..
neha ne meri nazar ko follow kiya and use dekha..

neha apne comments de rahi  thi and all bla bla blaa about her and me and us..
mujhe kuch nahin sun raha tha violens ke alawa...
main continously dekhe ja raha tha use
and kept on doing that till she went away from there...


socha tha sukoon milega use dekhne ke baad but yaahan to aur badh gai bechaini..
and i thought "tere ishq mein mujhe bekarariyaan mili hai nazraano mein"


then neha boli "yaar ladki toh sahi  hai bahut,so kya decide kiya"
and i was like "decide matlab?kis baare mein""regarding approaching her dumbo" she said
"oh teri is baare mein toh socha hi nahin" ,i thought


and baaki ka din isi baare mein sochta raha ki use approach kaise karoon..
and the i came to a conclusion to do that...


to be continued. . . 

ishq khumaari part 1

continued...


neha ko yakeen nahin aaya ki usne abhi kya suna
usne toh yun hi casually keh diya tha
but she could see ki main serious tha
boli "okayyyyeeee. . . . "
uske baad kuch nahin bol paayee
main khud sure nahin tha ki aage kya baat karun
i said "is baare mein baad me baat karenge.."
she just noded
(and this was awkward and unexplainable)

i noticed uska phone ring kar rha tha kaafi der se
i said "pick kyun nahin kar rahi'
ek naughty si smile dete hue boli- "rohan ka hai...jhagda karke phone kaat diya tha usne...thoda tadapne do"
i thought ye bahut accha aata hai ladkiyon ko
chaahe jaane mein ya anjaane mein hi..
maine bhi smile kar diya..ironic types..


then ham nikal gaye uski car mein
main kaafi had tak apna mood divert karne me suceed kar gaya tha ki tabhi song aaya fm par
"bechaniyaan betabiyaan.  . .
ye duriyaan majburiyan. . .
mushkil bada ye pyaar hai...."

and saare kiye karaye par paani fir gaya
neha ne ekdam haath badhaya to change the channel..
maine apna haath halka sa aage badha kar use  rok diya..

volume kam karte hue neha ne poocha
"kya hua hai? kuch idea toh de.."
maine socha kya bolun,ladki ki details maangegi sabse pehle..
nd kuch bhi toh nahin jaanta tha uske baare mein

fir socha ki dost hai,hak hai jaanne ka uska
and shayad share karke kuch better feel ho. . .
i said "ladki"
neha ne meri aur dekha and muskuraa di
boli "toh majnu wala avtaar hai ye" and zor zor se hasne lagi..

okeyy yahan neha ko describe karna zaruri ho gaya hai..
neha was one of the perfect example of beauty with brains
height acchi thi so modelling ke offers bhi aaye the use kuch
and uski ek smile par ladke hazaar baar marne ko ready the..
and above all,attitude bilkul nahin tha usme..

main ye sab kyun bata raha hun..
bcoz use tym song aa rha tha
"musu musu haasi deo "
so dhyaan gaya uski smile par..

but tabhi ek bhut strange sacchai se saamna hua
kehtein hai ki agar ek khubsoorat ladki ke saamne hote hue aap kisi aur ladki ke baare me socho toh samjho aapka major accident ho gaya hai us kisi aur ke pyaar mein
neha jaisi ladki saath me thi iske baavjud mujhe par kuch asar nahin hua and main fir sochne laga apni ms. "anamika" ke baare mein..
naam tak nahin pata tha uska..

anyways neha boli college me baat kartein hai kal is baare mein tu zyada mat sochna..
like itz as easy to do jitna kehna hai.
then usne mujhe drop kiya and chali gayee apne ghar ki aur..

ghar pahuncha toh dinner ka time ho gaya tha..
mom ne poocha dinner karke aaya hai ya karega
i said bhookh nahin hai,lagegi raat ko toh main kha lunga and ye kehke apne room mein chala gaya..

sab try kiya..
songs,tv,movies,orkut..
kahin main nahin laga
raat ke ek baje rahe the and mujhe neend nahin aa rahi thi..

sochne ke liye mere paas sirf ek glimpse hi thi uski..
and itna toh samjh hi raha tha main ki pagal types ho raha hoon main..

light off kar di..socha neend aa jaayegi..
subaha college bho jo jaana tha..
and shayad yehi ek acchi baat thi us wakt ke baarein mein ki ye jaayega toh wo wakt ayeega jab main fir dekhunga use..

halki si neend aayee hi thi ki phone ring hua..
it was neha
i thought raat 1:30 baje neha mujhe kyun call kar rahi hai..
ye time toh rohan ka dimaag khaati hai woh..
main pick kiya and said "haan nehaa"
but us taraf se koi awaaz nahin aayee. . . 


to be contd .. . .

hamari kahaani

college ke starting ke din bade exciting hote hai
mere bhi the..
naye dost bane,naya maahol mila
nd sabse badi baat ek freedom n independence ki feeling

lekin college life ek bahut important cheez sath laati hai
mujhe pata hai mere engineer dost sochenge back ki baat kar raha hai
par main baat kar rha hu college life ke pehle pyaar ki

jo mujhe bhi hua aur bahut jaldi hua
ek hawaa ka jhonka aayaa aur main is tufaaan me fas gaya

corridors mein ghum raha tha
canteen ka chakeer laga kar aaya tha
par kuch khaas man nahin hua kuch khaane ka

ghum raha tha idhar udhar ki ek nazar padi picture style
wo dikhi,nazrein ek dam wapas aayee us par

aur bas usi par aakar atak gai

dil ki dhadkane super fast ho gayee
nd ek aisi feeling se saamna hua pehli baar jisse kabhi nahin hua tha

pehli baar dil yun bekaraar hua

haan yaaron mujhe pyaar huaa

mera pehle pehla pyaar

LOVE at first sight

joke kiya karte the ki if it is love at first sight den pakaaa ladki gazab hogi

she was no exception

but mujhe nahin pata tha wo itni khubsorrat hai

ab,ragging ka tym tha suit me choti baandhe fir rahi thi..
par kuch thaa jisne mujhe kheencha aur aisa kheencha ki main gir gaya pyaar mein

i mean fell in love

aisa laga tha jaise life ke  best pal chal rahe the
n khuda se maanga bhi toh seedha  ki "ae khuda ise bhi mujhse mohabbat kara de"
par wah re hindi picture ke scene,wo nikal gayee n main wahin reh gaya love struck

man hi nahin kiya wahaa se jaane ka is ummeed me ki wo fir aaye na wo lamhaa fir aayeee

background me pehla nasha pehla khumaar bajna shuru ho gaya tha :P

anyways college life me sat sun do din ki chutti milti hai
pehli baar nafrat hui isse

dekha bhi toh friday ko tha
do din ki chutti aur main bechain
kuch nahin kiya do din

nikamma ho gaya

bas unhi kuch palo ko dohrata raha apne zehen mein,yakeen dila raha tha ki sapna nahin tha dost hakeekat thi wo..

khair wakt nikala kisi tarah

sunday ki shaam neha ka call aaya. . .

neha mere college life ki first dost thi

hamari khub patti thi aur ham puri class ki khub lete the

mere bhi maze aa rahe the

amir ghar ki ladki thi
khub aish karaaati thi

maine call pic kiya teesri baar mein

kuch bolta usse pehle hi bol padi..

"movie dekhni hai mujhe,aadhe ghante me waves pahunch"
aur phone kaat diyaa

khair kashmakash ke beech pahucha main

socha isi bahaaane mind divert ho jaaega

par kuch accha lag hi nahin raha tha

ek chote bacche ki tarah feel ho raha tha jisne koi tamanna ki ho aur wo tamanna hi reh gai ho

sochta raha uske baare me ki kaun thi,kya naam hoga,mujhe dekha hoga  ya nahin aur na jaane kitne aur

neha ka message aaya 

"coming in 5"

and wo 5 aur 5 ho ho ke 45 minute ho gaye..

pahunchi wo is ummeed me ki main jhaadunga

but hairaaan ho gai dekh ke ki mere chehre par bas ek smile thi n maine kahaa baith jaa

paani pi rahi thi bech me hi ruk ke boli ki tu gussaa nahin hai kya

maine kahan kyun?

kuch nahin boli

fir maine hi poocha "der kaise ho gai?"
boli rohan se jhagda ho gaya

rohan..

ye naam pehle kabhi nahin suna tha

socha boy friend hoga

maine poochaa
"rohan? tere bhai"

boli bhai hoga tera,mera toh jaanu hai

maine kahaa "accha hai"

boli "arey tujhe kuch puchna nahin,pehle maine tujhe kaha tha main single hu"
tab mujhe yaad aaya ki arey haain keh toh sahi rahi hai

den ye b ehsaas hua ki main devdaas banne ki aur chalne laga tha :P

anyways main poocha "kaun si movie dekhegi"

boli movie ke liye late ho gaya hai

ek ghante mein ghar jaana hai and vaise bhi movie se zyada intrest mujhe aur kisi cheeez mein hain. . . 

teri hawaaiyaan kyun udi padi hai,kal se ek b message nahin kiya na call"

main bola "kuch nahin hua bas energy bacha raha hun next week ke college ke liye"

maine bola hi tha ki usne ek thappad laga diya halka sa jitni zor se hamari dosti permit karti

boli ki bewakuf nahin hun main sab dikha raha hai

kuch toh hua hai n kuch bada n serious hua hai

main bola kuch nahin hua yaar,mood swing samjh le

boli main baat nahin karungi jab tak batayega nahin ki kya hai..
main bhi kuch bola nahin,cofee peene laga gaya aur fir chala gaya uske khayaalo mein

phir r neha hi bol padi

"break up hua hai kya?

arey yaar meri bahut single dost hai setting karwa dungi"

bas neha ne itna hi kaha tha ki meri aanhein ruk gayee uski aankhon ko dekhte huee

bolo hmmm break up hua hai then

maine kahan "tu sach me setting karwa sakti hai?"

boli haaan,mujhe sab rishta.com bolte the mere school group mein

main shaant ho gaya kuch der n aisa ehsaas hua pyaar ke paqgalpane me ki bhagwaan ne sun li meri n apna agent bhej diya

main bola" kisi se bhi karwa sakti hai? "

ab shaant hone ki baari uski thi

ab wo sochne ki koshish kar rahi thi ki kya chal raha hai ye sab. .. . .  . .

to be contd...